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<oriansj>janneke: what do you think about moving the macro expansion out of the eval and into a stage after the reader? <xentrac>that is how it should be done to be macro expansion <xentrac>if I were functional enough to be helping I would already have written gzip in Scheme <xentrac>given that I haven't, I fear that if I were to say "sure, that sounds great!" the only thing I will accomplish is dissuading actually functional people from doing the work <xentrac>I mean, I'd love to. but I'm not confident in my ability to actually do things I commit to, right now <xentrac>last night I was planning to submit a timesheet and an invoice and finish reading a file format standard that I need to implement <xentrac>today I have an email saying "I'd like to be paying you but I can't pay you unless you submit an invoice" <xentrac>sorry for dumping all this anguish stuff on you; I just feel like my refusal of your entirely reasonable and super fun request demands a certain amount of justification <oriansj>xentrac: actually it never requires justification; saying no is the foundation of basic control in one's life. <oriansj>I must say the raytracer is rather cool <xentrac>maybe "justification" was too strong a term <oriansj>xentrac: To be honest; everyone here has reasons to take weeks off and just deal with what realy matters to them. <oriansj>Saturday was my Father's Funeral and honestly I don't feel very motivated to do much today <oriansj>But ultimately; doing something productive, no matter how small always ends up making me feel better. <oriansj>So today my goal is finish reading 1 book and tomorrow: Remove modules and Macros from mes-m2 <xentrac>oh, deepest condolences. I had no idea <oriansj>xentrac: well that is the thing about being human. Hidding of pain and problems is the default. <oriansj>When you look around at the people in our lives, it is easy to miss the problems they suffer daily <oriansj>Getting 34th place in a Marathon is known to most by the first work day after you do it <oriansj>Leg Press 1350lbs on Tuesday and people know about it by Wednesday <oriansj>but lose a project bid and somehow it slips our minds to tell others... <oriansj>It was V-fib; essentially his heart stopped pumping blood and within 30 Minutes he was dead <oriansj>Heart disease you can know about for years and A-Fib is a minor danger which is usually the only early signs you get <oriansj>well; Tomorrow is never promised to anyone <oriansj>I guess I know that better than most <oriansj>I lost my fiance when I was 19 to a drunk driver going 100+mph and blowing through a red light <oriansj>It was back when I did contract work for a living <oriansj>I just kind of buried myself in work for a long time <oriansj>It is why everyday I treat people in the manner I wish for them to remember me <oriansj>xentrac: that nightmare ended up getting worse; the contracting company I worked for had an unusually generous 401K program, which ended up having a very important clause which was used to rob ALL of their employees <xentrac>That sounds much less bad than suddenly having your fiance die <oriansj>xentrac: true but it was the cherry on top of that Shit sundae <xentrac>Bury yourself in work and discover that the people you're working for are betraying you <oriansj>when you put 93% of what you are making into your 401k only to discover that they took every single cent of it <oriansj>I was planning on retiring at the age of 22 with my fiance and raise children; only to have both of those dreams ripped away <oriansj>So here I am at 34: married with a Child on the way (a boy due in March) and working for the State of Michigan. <oriansj>a clawback clause buried deep in the contract; which the company could leverage only when the company was sold under very specific conditions (that they manufactored prior to the sale) <oriansj>Now I read legal documents in depth prior to even considering agreement. <oriansj>believe me; lawyers were engaged very very quickly but the courts sided against us <oriansj>all told; it took 10 years of therapy to get past the anger of what happened <oriansj>Iraq took 1/2 of my friends from High school; Afghanistan took 1/3 <xentrac>They must have been placed in particularly dangerous situations, because that would be a high proportion even if all of them had gone <oriansj>All of them that went to war, never came back <oriansj>My Friend Tom did 4 Tours before he was killed by an IUD <oriansj>My friend Daniel: joined Blackwater to pay for his Wife's Cancer treatments <stikonas>that's the sad thing about US. Hopefully you'll get M4A soon... European universal healthcare makes you feel much safer <xentrac>Iraq and Afghanistan are pretty sad things about the US too <oriansj>consequences of a broken system and the cost in basic human lives. <xentrac>I mean, people with a lot of different political beliefs can I think agree that those wars have not been brilliantly successful on any terms <oriansj>There are now children deploying to Iraq and Afghanistan that were born after the invasions <xentrac>Except maybe killing and injuring a lot of people <oriansj>In the most brutally wrong way possible <xentrac>Yeah, I guess the wars did create some shareholder value; I wasn't thinking about that <oriansj>So here I am doing everything I can to fix just a few little pieces <xentrac>Probably some of the Daesh higher-ups benefited from it too, though they'd never say that <xentrac>I think it's important to keep in mind what are the things that matter beyond the scope of the individual human life <oriansj>You will not believe the amount of crap one gets in government for saving $6Million/year <xentrac>that's a headcount of 60 people, you ended some middle manager's career <oriansj>just one bad contract; which got paid to do no work <oriansj>a fraud detection system that literally used /dev/urandom to identify "fraud" <xentrac>management influence is measured by budget, not results <oriansj>and all I do is keep cutting people's budgets by eliminating waste, fraud and abuse <oriansj>Like the current contract I am investigating is essentially a single asterisk server; on a no bid contract that is getting $5.4M/Year and they can't even bother to put it in a FEDRAMP compliant server environment <oriansj>(Which by the way only costs $170/Month) <oriansj>It is easy to see; why I enjoy bootstrapping work so much more <oriansj>My only concern is how much more limited my hacking time will be when my first born is finally born. <xentrac>I wonder if there's a way you could get paid for eliminating waste, fraud, and abuse, instead of getting on an increasing number of shit lists <oriansj>xentrac: taking and dealing with other people's shit is what is expected if you actually want to make the world a better place <xentrac>I think my primary obstacles are actually ① dealing with my own shit and ② acquiring the power to overcome other people's shit <xentrac>certainly taking and dealing with other people's shit is in there too, but if you take it to the extreme you end up like Chelsea Manning or my friend Aaron <oriansj>xentrac: fear not those who fear change; burn with a passion to set the world ablaze <xentrac>not everyone who burns with a passion to set the world ablaze makes a difference; some of them don't have enough resources and some of them aren't functional enough internally <oriansj>xentrac: if you are on signal or jami (Gnu Ring) we can chat about how to help you <xentrac>that passion is a precious resource; use it strategically <oriansj>just know I am always there for those who need to talk. <oriansj>xentrac: don't forget to get paid and send that invoice <oriansj>remember the 1 minute rule: if a task takes only 1 minute and will make your life a little better in the long term; do it 